Saturday, May 17, 2014
Worthy
Ephesians 2:10 (KJV)
10 For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them.
Philippians 1:6 (KJV)
6 Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:
Romans 8:1 (KJV)
Colossians 1:10 (NLT)
10 Then the way you live will always honor and please the Lord, and your lives will produce every kind of good fruit. All the while, you will grow as you learn to know God better and better.
Psalm 138:8 (NLT)
for your faithful love, O Lord, endures forever.
Don’t abandon me, for you made me.
Wednesday, May 14, 2014
Tuesday, May 13, 2014
I took my last exam of my 2nd year yesterday, which means that the preclinical/book work years are over! I have my big board exam at the end of June and then Zac and I will be moving to Charleston where I'll do my last 2 years of clinicals. We're really excited to be coming back closer to home. In the third year I'll have a couple months in: Neuro/Psych, Family Medicine (with a month at home in Dawson for a rural rotation!), Internal Medicine, Surgery, OBGYN, and Pediatrics. Zac will be transferring to the Target in Charleston, and our new apartment is on the river about a mile from the capitol. I feel a little like I've been under a rock for 2 years and I'm excited to be seeing people/patients again, and to be able to come home more often!
Here's a picture from our last day of exams. The two girls with me both went to the same college that I did for undergrad, and it was so nice to have them here over the past 2 years.
Hope to see all of ya'll soon!3>
Sunday, May 11, 2014
Saturday, May 10, 2014
Hands
Lead me on, let me stand
I am tired, I am weak, I am worn
Through the storm, through the night
Lead me on to the light
Take my hand precious Lord, lead me home
When my way grows drear
Precious Lord linger near
When my life is almost gone
Hear my cry, hear my call
Hold my hand lest I fall
Take my hand precious Lord, lead me home
When the darkness appears
And the night draws near
And the day is past and gone
At the river I stand
Take my hand precious Lord, lead me home
When I was a child I remember anytime I was afraid or alone someone would hold my hand. Coming from a large family it could’ve been anyone; mom, dad, brother, sister, lots to choose from. The feeling you get from just the entanglement of fingers is so overwhelming there are almost no words for it. Safety. Comfort. Love. Security. Those are all emotions we all have felt at one time or another. I also remember holding hands the first time with Danny. Different emotions…scared, nervous, sweaty…actually I felt nauseous but it quickly resolved to familiar! When my kids were little I held their hands out of a need to keep them safe and to hold on to them. As they grew older they would search out my hand to hold when they were scared or frightened, lonely or needed comforting. When we have our family get together we make a circle and hold hands. We take the hand of the one beside us, give it a squeeze, and offer up our thanks to God for allowing us to be together! When we are at church we often have prayer, special prayer, and we gather in a circle and hold hands. We entangle not only our fingers with one another but also our hearts and lives. We are telling that one beside of us that we have the time to get involved in their life to offer up a prayer, sacrificing a little time and a little piece of our heart.
Proverbs 31:10-31 (NIV)
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still night;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her female servants.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
29 “Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all.”
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
31 Honor her for all that her hands have done,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
Friday, May 2, 2014
Classmates
Which way did he go George, which way did he go? How many of you remember that cartoon? I know you all are seeing that huge abominable snowman in your mind. Picking up George and holding him by the neck and saying in that funny little voice, which way did he go George, which way did he go?
That’s kind of how I feel. Thinking about my 30 year class reunion has brought that thought up with practically everyone’s pictures I see in the year book, except for those few like me who have stayed in Greenbrier County and our way didn’t go very far. Or did it? I have wondered many times if so and so actually did what they said they were going to do. While I find others actually did stuff I never thought they would do. And then there are some of us like me who never moved out of the neighborhood but yet I feel like I have been on a tremendous journey sometimes.
I haven’t kept up with any of my classmates except for occasionally running into them at Wal-Mart or facebook. Life got busy for us all. We raised families went to school, started careers, accomplished great things. And now here we are almost ½ decade old and we gather with friends we feel like we hardly know. For some or most we met in high school, hung out for 3 years and went our separate ways. Did we really know each other then? No I don’t think so. I remember seeing faces day in and day out, smiles that hid so much. Teenage years are the hardest EVER! We got by and got through with the help of those faces. Our parents didn’t understand or so we thought. Now here we are with teenagers of our own and they are doing the same thing. They think we don’t have a clue but has it really been that long? 30 years?! But I can remember walking the halls of Greenbrier West like it was yesterday. I can still hear the choir singing Billie Joel’s tune It’s Still Rock and Roll to me in my head. Humming along. When I go to a ballgame I can still feel the atmosphere as if I was 16. But there is something about those classmates we surround ourselves with. The ones that have the same home life and we know by just the look in their eyes. Maybe their grief is the same as yours and you just know by that same look. You can almost feel it. So yes, the bonds we formed 30 years ago were brief, 3 years for most, but they were bonds. And I am proud to say I was in a class of 140 or so that made it out alive and traveled to the other side, 30 years later.
It’s funny, I think, how we feel the need to reconnect at some level to see how we all turned out. It’s almost like we were turkeys cooking and now 30 years later someone sticks a fork in us and says, “OK, this one’s done?” By now we have all grown up, raised our families for the most part, many have started new families, jobs have come and went, spouses, come and gone, health on the decline, many of us have lost parents and spouses and now we find ourselves at a crossroads. That’s where I am. I am trying to figure out, which way do I go Lord, which way do I go?
Proverbs 16:9
In their hearts humans plan their course but the Lord establishes their steps
When you lose the one you have traveled through life with for 30 years, whether it is death or divorce, you instantly meet road blocks. I feel like I am at a 4 way stop sign and my engine has stalled- and given my history of car accidents this winter, I am not stretching the truth here! My kids are all almost grown; do I go back to school? I have a big empty house; do I sell it and go smaller? So many questions and unfortunately I don’t travel with the pack of kids that helped me make decisions when I was at Greenbrier West. I am alone. My decisions. My mistakes. I’ll have to live with it. But the good thing is in my last 30 years I have travelled a road that has been bumpy, treacherous at times; curvy and well at times it has come to a dead end. And I know that my class mates have traveled this same road. We have grown, matured and we have found that we can’t go this road alone. The one thing I have noticed as I have reconnected with many friends and former classmates is not the size of theirhouse or what kind of car they drive but it is their testimony and how they have overcome obstacles to just survive. I notice thatthey reached out to God. They have called upon Jesus to help them in their struggles and I see He has done it. He has made a way when there seemed to be no way. I know many have jumped hurdles and have overcome many things to get to where they are today. Many still have a long way to go.
I hope and pray as we get ready for a class reunion that it will be more than just reuniting and seeing familiar faces. I hope we get the chance to uplift someone and help them if they are at their crossroads of life. Similar to high school, there will be those that have already gone where we are headed. Change is exciting but also scary. It’s ok to ask someone to hold your hand even if it’s just for a little while. Jesus holds our heart and he places people in our path to hold our hand for part of our journey; our angels on earth. Our travels wouldn’t be near as meaningful without those relationships He gives us. Treat them gently and with kindness. Love when it seems like you can’t. Forgive when everything inside of you says no! Trust them when they give you no reason to. Why? That’s what Jesus would do! That’s what He expects of us…We can’t disappoint the one that created us! He doesn’t ask much of us…Love Jesus, love your neighbor. I think we can do that!
John 15:12
My command is this; Love each other as I have loved you!





